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I struggle to make each post meaningful while maintaining the privacy of my family, especially my children’s. Finding that balance is difficult since when speaking about my children, I will inevitably expose their privacy.

The blog began as a tool of communication to the physical world about CHD and the triumph that may result from it–when I started, I didn’t quite see otherwise. I thought in this world and age, many CHDers made it to at least 40. When our journey began beyond the womb, I realized how much devastation and loss can actually result from CHD–I learned from support groups and blogs. So, I blogged with words that bled from my heart, stopping short of nothing because who could think of tomorrow when today was the end? Then, I realized other people who were not my family and friends were reading, and I got scared, and closed up a bit, stopped writing for bouts of times, even. Our privacy is important. But, I kept writing with a goal in mind and that is to spread awareness, or perhaps provide hope to others who had an ailing child with CHD.

But, that is not a reason strong enough to keep on going. I am a private person, and I think it is unfair of me to expose my children to the www without their consent. I’ve thought for a long time of how the information I share to the world will affect them in their young manhood or adulthood. After reading an article today from an adult CHD survivor, I made the decision to stop blogging about my children and Justin’s surgeries and life. I will eventually take this chapter of our lives down. I may turn Fourtran into a place for me, just me, and as much as I’m comfortable to share.

Thank you for reading and following our story. You’ll undoubtedly see me around the www.

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