Home of the Four Trans

Many of those closest to me didn’t think I could do it, but I did. I left my kids for a mini Mama vacation for 3.5 days. Loi took over for the weekend, which allowed me a peace of mind while traveling across the country to New York to watch Chicago the Musical, fine dine at Blue Ribbon Sushi, bike ride through Central Park, and lounge with my cousin and sisters. It was fun. But, boy, am I glad to be back.

Since it was New York that I vacayed in, you know, the city known as, “The City that never sleeps,” I wouldn’t exactly call it a vacation. But, it was nice to have the opportunity to speed walk without a stroller, and dress up and put on make up, again.

Needless to say, I missed my boys. But, they were allowed some father/son, male bonding time. I saw a marked difference in how Justin responds to Loi, now. Before the trip, Loi was just a secondary person Justin would ask for if Mama wasn’t around. After the trip, he wants Loi more than he wants me. The first morning back from New York, I thought Justin was upset at me. He barely gave me eye contact, and pretty much ignored me. When Loi came home, he reached his arms for Loi. That had never happened before! He never asked to be with Loi when he had the chance to be in Mama’s arms!

My sister Diane also saw a difference in Nathan’s attitude towards Justin. According to her, Nathan seemed nicer to Justin. Apparently, Loi allowed the boys to “duke it out” without his intervention. I suppose this allowed them to set boundaries and an understanding of one another?

The house was spotless when I came home! Loi had known that I would want to rest after coming back from New York, and have the opportunity to play with the boys. So, he caught up with the laundry and dishes, vacuumed, and tidied up the house so I wouldn’t have to. So nice!

Although I did enjoy my independence for the weekend, I must admit that I  enjoy my time mothering so much more. As I planned the itinerary and walked through the city, I couldn’t help but think how much fun my kids would have being right beside me. The truth is, I would have brought them along with me. But, with Justin’s heart issues, I am afraid to bring him on the 5 hour plane ride. I don’t know how his heart and body would handle the high elevation. But, we’ll see.

By the way, I also turned 29 over the weekend. This is my last year as a young twenty something before I turn the dreaded 3-0. Blah! Why do I have such anxiety over this? Anyway, this trip was in a way a present from Loi to celebrate this very important year for me…as a twenty something…for the last time! Man, I have issues.

Full Confession: I am a mother of two kids, and the wife of a wonderful husband. I will always see myself as a mother and wife first. But, when I stepped out on my own in my 5 inch heels, and makeup all done up, I realized a glimmer of myself that I hadn’t seen for a long time…and, I liked it!

Thank you, hubby for loving me, and working so hard for me and us.

Now, back to your regular scheduled Mommy…

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